I can't say my day off was a complete waste. I didn't get much accomplished but it was relaxing and I got to spend some quality time with the bf. However I can only take so much. I love having him around but cherish the silence when he leaves. On the flipside then I feel very alone and kind of bored. I really need to broaden my friend horizon. Apparently having guy friends is out of the question. I know, given my history, that having guy friends would appear in a negative light. But it's not always like that. In this particular case my intentions were purely innocent. Nobody can read my mind and everything comes off wrong and I feel as though I am being judged. It totally sucks. Then I have to deal with having a guilty conscience even though I didn't even do anything. I can see on the other side how I might feel if he wanted to hang out with a girl..checks and balances. Bummer dude.
One more day and then it's vaca time. We leave tonight and I am totally stoked. Hopefully I don't kill him over the weekend. He has seemed super hystrung and hyper lately. Like he's on something haaha. I know he isn't but seriously just be quiet. "I love you but if you talk about work one more time I swear I am going to duct tape your mouth shut. I need some peace!" It would be great if he could talk in calming tones without this know-it-all righteous attitude. That used to be something I liked about him. He knows pretty much a little about lots of stuff. I should be proud that he's so well rounded in knowledge but now I am thinking it's not so great. Calm down!! It doesn't matter, no one is arguing with you.. JUST PLEASE SHUT UP! Arg! I need to take a breather. I have eight hours of day left and just need to let it go...Why am I even letting it bother me? I can tune stuff out with the best of them. Selective hearing, anyone? Yeah that's what I thought. Good luck to me!
Have a great and safe 4th! Remember the troops who fight for our freedom!