Fuck you life! hahahaha. I'm drunk and trying to get my life together all at the same time..don't even try to tell me that isn't fucked up! I've been unemployed for almost 3 weeks now and it really sucks. Don't get me wrong, I was lovin the time off there for awhile..being able to say fuck you to the world but it gets old after awhile. Now I'm alone...not lonely but alone and it's kinda depressing. I'm just trying to make it through one day at a time..one foot in front of the other. It's tiring. I want someone who can pick up my slack. Who wants to the carry the burden of this thing so called life..but so far no luck. I'm positive somebody will want to hire me someday some how but for now I'm going to get wasted and wallow in self pity. Went through a ton of stuff tonight..have tons to get rid of. My bed is covered in clothes...gonna sleep on the floor I think ahahaha. Watch out you rich bitchs, I'm coming for you!!

Back at the Ranch...

So much has happened since August. After quitting my job I remained unemployed for about a month til getting a job working for T-Mobile. It has been challenging but I am so glad that I made the decision that I did. I also enrolled in College which is probably the best choice I have made this far. A lot of new things happened all at once and has been very overwhelming at times. My boyfriend and I split. Interestingly enough we are still seeing each other but are not together. It's funny how life works out. We are so much better when we aren't together. We just spend time together without stressing about all the other crap. It's helps me to relax at any rate. I haven't the slightest idea what we are doing but I'm not going to jinx it..just enjoy it for what it is.
On another note, I have been procrastinating on homework. I have a paper due today that needs some serious work. So here is a mini update more later. :D

I QUIT!! TODAY IS MY LAST DAY!!!

Happy Thursday!

I have an interview scheduled for tomorrow at another dealership. I am hoping I get it for multiple reasons. Better pay, better company, better position. I would really like to be able to just get a new job and move on. It seems as though this is all I talk about. I can't help it. It's my biggest worry right now and considering I have to be at work for 8 hours everday it consumes me. It would be great if I went in tomorrow and they asked so when can you start? Uh, RIGHT NOW! I should give my two weeks notice however if I do get hired I am not going to think twice about leaving this company.
This weekend is the Pow Wow (Indian tribal meeting). I am taking my mom to the coast with me. I really think she needs some time away not to mention I haven't been to the coast in ages. Hopefully the weather is nice, I love walking on the beach but not when sand is blowing in my eyes. I'll take some pictures to put up!

Fa la la la la French Vanilla (oh yes the blandness of my life)

So the job hunt is not going extremely well. It's DEPRESSING! I have applied so many places I can't even remember where exactly. People keep contacting me and say something along the lines of "I'm calling you to discuss the receptionist job you applied for." I am thinking in my head Which one? I got a job lead today about possibly working at another dealership. I could make way more money but I'm not sure if this is the industry I want to stay in. But you know the saying Never look a Gift Horse in the Mouth! (I was trying to underline that and I haven't the slightest idea how. Can anyone help me with that?)

In other news: I started reading Eat, Pray, Love. I'm not sure what I think about the book. I kind of like the concept as a whole. Just go! Learn Italian (and really that would be awesome) spend some time getting to know yourself. Although that whole theory can be seriously overrated. Experiences and people help to develop character. I don't think I would want to know myself any more than I do. Can you say Complicated!? Anywho I'm starving and it's not even close to lunch time yet. Arg...Here's to hump day!

Oh My

Well the weekend started out extremely rough. I ended up getting in a huge fight with my dad and was not able to locate my mom. Extremely frustrating!!! But all's well that ends well. Finally found my mom after playing detective for a couple hours and driving all over town. And my dad apologized..good enough. Sunday turned out to be fantastic. I way slept in and then Dad and his gf and I piled in the car to go hiking. We walked the whole loop around McDowell creek. It was good to get out and get some exercise. We stopped at a winery on the way home as a "treat" for getting out and moving. It was the first time I had ever been wine tasting and I really enjoyed it. It was a laid back atmosphere and enjoyable company. We had a glass after the tasting and then I bought a bottle to take home. I shared some and drank the rest..hahah so typical of me. Anywho back at work today and am going to follow up on a job...fingers crossed that I get it!!! PLEASE!!

Same ole shit Different day

As if you don't know, I would like to reiterate my loathing for my job. I hate you job, I hope you die. I hope that I will come in next week and you will fire me.

On a brighter note, I think I am going to take a road trip this weekend. I need to get away have some fun. The boyfriend will be riding all weekend so it's only fitting that I go do something for myself as well!! woohoo soo excited! Come on weekend!