My grandpa was diagnosed with cancer when I was young. I grew up knowing that he was sick and slowly it became something like "she has blonde hair". He passed away three years ago shortly after Christmas. My uncle just had a brain tumor removed and then less than a week after was diagonsed with stage 4 lung cancer. Both were heavy smokers. I am a smoker. The pressure to quit is immense. I am not sure that I am ready to quit yet. Cancer is like teen pregnancy. I think people, including me think that "That will never happen to me." My dad recently quit smoking and that heightens the urgency even more.
In other news:
I am looking into going to school. I wish I hadn't taken five years off. I have a lot of catching up to do before I can even begin to look into the professional courses I need to take. Not to mention, the degree I want is only offered at a school three hours away from where I am currently located. I have a new boyfriend who is not keen on the idea of me attending school that far away. However, I finally feel as if I am getting into the swing of life. Exploring career options and taking charge of my life's direction. I don't know how it's all going to work out. I just hope it does. Onward and upward. I hate to say this because it sounds horribly selfish. But I am not going to put my life on hold for anyone again. I did that the last go around, waiting for the ex to make decisions he was never going to make. Or at least not the way I wanted him too. This relationship is complicated in different ways because CBF (current boyfriend) has children. And of course all the decisions he makes will be centered around them which is the way it should be. Who knows? I have at minimum two years of schooling here first before I even get to that bridge.
